My anorexia story @edrecoverygainz

I was always a happy kid I loved spending time with family and was excitable but as I started to get older the more self conscious I got, I got bullied and had a lot going on around me, I started a new school and was afraid I wouldn’t fit in, I remember comparing myself to other people and wanting to be the same as them, I found it hard to eat at lunch at school because I felt everyone was watching me, my mum realised something was wrong and kept asking me things and I said I was “fine” because I was too scared to say anything but as time went on mum saw that I was losing weight so she told the doctor and they referred me to the Camhs eating disorder team and diagnosed me with Anorexia Nervosa, I felt like i was being controlled by them but really I was controlled by my illness, I kept having arguments with them and I hated it I felt selfish and unworthy, like no one wanted me but as time went on i had enough of everything and I opened up to people about it. It was the best thing I could’ve done because then they gave me the support I needed and I started to realise that I had an illness that needed to be treated, I started my recovery and I got taken to impatient but I don’t feel bad about that because it’s gave me the best experiences, yes some were horrific, but I met the best friends I could ever ask for, that knew what I was going through and supported me through the tough days I felt like giving up on anything, I had a shoulder to cry on, my family came to visit and it upset me to watch them leave out of the window while being trapped inside, but it motivated me to keep on going, that there were reasons to recover, the one thing I learnt with anorexia is it takes everything away from you and ruins the precious times you have with friends and family and I’m going to carry on recovering and living the best life I can, yes it may be tough but it will get easier

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